Wednesday 3/10/10

I hate not being with you, it's still not real. I forget for a second and thing how grateful I am to have such a strong relationship. And then reality twists the knife once again. I am back at square one, unable to comprehend. Wondering how this could be real? Knowing I could never trust you again. With open arms you called me closer to your lies and then pushed me away. My heart was breaking but it didn't matter. My heart still breaks and I can do nothing. I am on this journey, this road. Your journey, your road. I did not choose it, you did. I did not want it, you did. So here I am all alone. making my way through puddles of confusion, anger, dispair, lost love, looking for distractions, looking to heal.